Post by lostmedia1975 on Jun 16, 2024 19:05:59 GMT
I didn’t speak to one of my online friends for 4 months (August 2023-January 2024.) The reason was because we tended to play together in a roblox game where the admins were really toxic and especially took an intense hatred for me in particular, and after a while it started to feel like everyone hated me, including her. This was back during the summer of 2023. I just felt like I was being a nuisance, which tbf I did interrupt some of her convos with her other friends with my shitty and sometimes controversial jokes, which didn’t help.
Eventually I got the feeling she just hated me with a passion by this point (I wasn’t in a good headspace at the time, and to an extent I’m still not), so I stopped talking to her kinda just to leave her alone and hoped she forgot about me, all while blaming myself for the one-sided (on my part as it turns out) fallout with her. Yes, I was a miserable wreck ravaged with depression.
Months later, on January 2, 2024, I decided to make a joke as some humorous way of saying “alright, sorry for bothering you, here’s a joke to make up for my inconvenience”. The joke in question?: “Ngl I want to kashoot myself.” I have a very broken sense of humor.
5 days later, at 1:48 AM on January 7, you could imagine my surprise when I suddenly got two roblox messages notifications of her frantically BEGGING for me to still be alive and not do anything drastic or hurt myself.I quickly hopped on to calm her down and reassure her that I was in fact still alive, and then i opened up about everything that happened in the 4 months of silence. We talked for almost 2 hours that night. I was surprised she even remembered I existed, but in more recent discord conversations, she admitted that she actually thought I DIED, before eventually coming to the conclusion that I was just one of those friends who go offline for significant periods of time. Oh how wrong she was, and she admitted to regretting ever coming to that conclusion.
We’ve been talking again ever since.
Last Edit: Jun 16, 2024 19:06:15 GMT by lostmedia1975
I didn’t speak to one of my online friends for 4 months (August 2023-January 2024.) The reason was because we tended to play together in a roblox game where the admins were really toxic and especially took an intense hatred for me in particular, and after a while it started to feel like everyone hated me, including her. This was back during the summer of 2023. I just felt like I was being a nuisance, which tbf I did interrupt some of her convos with her other friends with my shitty and sometimes controversial jokes, which didn’t help.
Eventually I got the feeling she just hated me with a passion by this point (I wasn’t in a good headspace at the time, and to an extent I’m still not), so I stopped talking to her kinda just to leave her alone and hoped she forgot about me, all while blaming myself for the one-sided (on my part as it turns out) fallout with her. Yes, I was a miserable wreck ravaged with depression.
Months later, on January 2, 2024, I decided to make a joke as some humorous way of saying “alright, sorry for bothering you, here’s a joke to make up for my inconvenience”. The joke in question?: “Ngl I want to kashoot myself.” I have a very broken sense of humor.
5 days later, at 1:48 AM on January 7, you could imagine my surprise when I suddenly got two roblox messages notifications of her frantically BEGGING for me to still be alive and not do anything drastic or hurt myself.I quickly hopped on to calm her down and reassure her that I was in fact still alive, and then i opened up about everything that happened in the 4 months of silence. We talked for almost 2 hours that night. I was surprised she even remembered I existed, but in more recent discord conversations, she admitted that she actually thought I DIED, before eventually coming to the conclusion that I was just one of those friends who go offline for significant periods of time. Oh how wrong she was, and she admitted to regretting ever coming to that conclusion.
We’ve been talking again ever since.
that's kinda wholesome. Push comes to shove sometimes we have a bad habit of catastrophizing things. Even I've been guilty of overreacting to akward moments I have with people, or I'm afraid they're judging me over an embarrassing moments.
If I had to add my own moments there are a million different things I've done which were so embarrassing I don't really want to share them, but if you want a sampler I once asked my aunt "how she liked her condom" because I mispronounced something else I don't even remember. Looking back I thought they overreacted but now I see why...
Last Edit: Jun 17, 2024 3:27:25 GMT by nostalgist32x
I didn’t speak to one of my online friends for 4 months (August 2023-January 2024.) The reason was because we tended to play together in a roblox game where the admins were really toxic and especially took an intense hatred for me in particular, and after a while it started to feel like everyone hated me, including her. This was back during the summer of 2023. I just felt like I was being a nuisance, which tbf I did interrupt some of her convos with her other friends with my shitty and sometimes controversial jokes, which didn’t help.
Eventually I got the feeling she just hated me with a passion by this point (I wasn’t in a good headspace at the time, and to an extent I’m still not), so I stopped talking to her kinda just to leave her alone and hoped she forgot about me, all while blaming myself for the one-sided (on my part as it turns out) fallout with her. Yes, I was a miserable wreck ravaged with depression.
Months later, on January 2, 2024, I decided to make a joke as some humorous way of saying “alright, sorry for bothering you, here’s a joke to make up for my inconvenience”. The joke in question?: “Ngl I want to kashoot myself.” I have a very broken sense of humor.
5 days later, at 1:48 AM on January 7, you could imagine my surprise when I suddenly got two roblox messages notifications of her frantically BEGGING for me to still be alive and not do anything drastic or hurt myself.I quickly hopped on to calm her down and reassure her that I was in fact still alive, and then i opened up about everything that happened in the 4 months of silence. We talked for almost 2 hours that night. I was surprised she even remembered I existed, but in more recent discord conversations, she admitted that she actually thought I DIED, before eventually coming to the conclusion that I was just one of those friends who go offline for significant periods of time. Oh how wrong she was, and she admitted to regretting ever coming to that conclusion.
We’ve been talking again ever since.
that's kinda wholesome. Push comes to shove sometimes we have a bad habit of catastrophizing things. Even I've been guilty of overreacting to akward moments I have with people, or I'm afraid they're judging me over an embarrassing moments.
If I had to add my own moments there are a million different things I've done which were so embarrassing I don't really want to share them, but if you want a sampler I once asked my aunt "how she liked her condom" because I mispronounced something else I don't even remember. Looking back I thought they overreacted but now I see why...
Well in my case I feel like I did kinda deserve it, since my jokes were kinda… dark. Like one time she was talking with one of her friends about their cats, and my dumbass decided to interrupt the convo not once, but TWICE. The first, I asked her friend if she was born in Ohio as some shitty joke (she kept mentioning that a lot of her cats died), and the second one, I said “we must cook and eat the cats”. She later came to like my sense of humor, but in the moment, she seemed pretty annoyed with me, as was her friend.
It’s a wonder Ozzie even still wants anything to do with me after I was that rude.
Last Edit: Jun 17, 2024 5:30:25 GMT by lostmedia1975
that's kinda wholesome. Push comes to shove sometimes we have a bad habit of catastrophizing things. Even I've been guilty of overreacting to akward moments I have with people, or I'm afraid they're judging me over an embarrassing moments.
If I had to add my own moments there are a million different things I've done which were so embarrassing I don't really want to share them, but if you want a sampler I once asked my aunt "how she liked her condom" because I mispronounced something else I don't even remember. Looking back I thought they overreacted but now I see why...
Well in my case I feel like I did kinda deserve it, since my jokes were kinda… dark. Like one time she was talking with one of her friends about their cats, and my dumbass decided to interrupt the convo not once, but TWICE. The first, I asked her friend if she was born in Ohio as some shitty joke (she kept mentioning that a lot of her cats died), and the second one, I said “we must cook and eat the cats”. She later came to like my sense of humor, but in the moment, she seemed pretty annoyed with me, as was her friend.
It’s a wonder Ozzie even still wants anything to do with me after I was that rude.
If you ask me the worst part is that you unironicallg made an Ohio joke.
Well in my case I feel like I did kinda deserve it, since my jokes were kinda… dark. Like one time she was talking with one of her friends about their cats, and my dumbass decided to interrupt the convo not once, but TWICE. The first, I asked her friend if she was born in Ohio as some shitty joke (she kept mentioning that a lot of her cats died), and the second one, I said “we must cook and eat the cats”. She later came to like my sense of humor, but in the moment, she seemed pretty annoyed with me, as was her friend.
It’s a wonder Ozzie even still wants anything to do with me after I was that rude.
If you ask me the worst part is that you unironicallg made an Ohio joke.
Not really, but I get what you mean. Still nice I was at least able to make amends with her regardless, and she’s actually also trying to get some of her friends and neighbors to help me if I decide to run away to California, which is why I’m going there.
its when I completed something [like a presentation] but then when I check it, I missing like 30% of the important details and you had no time to fix the mistake.
i couldnt think of anything else.
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Post by extremewreck2000 on Aug 8, 2024 20:20:58 GMT
For me, I just sometimes say something that is accidentally horrific. Like it either sounds incredibly racist or anti-LGBT+ or p3doph1l1c in one instance(that one in particular was so bad that the mere reminder of it sends chills down my spine). I won't go into specifics because I don't feel like looking back at such things, but I remember that stuff & needless to say I regret those things. It's not just that I'm autistic, it's also because my mind just keeps warping between various words, phrases & images so fast that I cannot think for a second that what I'm about to say or write will sound awful out of context.
...And I have a feeling that I'm gonna get banned for saying this.
EDIT: If it says "Banned" under the stars then you probably know that this post is why.
Post by extremewreck2000 on Aug 9, 2024 0:53:50 GMT
In general I have this "Rules for me, not for thee" mindset on things. For me, I do something slightly wrong, I'll feel guilt or will panic over it silently, though mostly the former. Meanwhile I don't feel like telling other people for such mistakes, thinking they don't really care unless they IDK, obliterated some distant planet in another galaxy on accident.
Dreams are boundless, imaginations are infinite, space is a multi-directional spiral & Akazukin ChaCha is my favorite anime
For me, I just sometimes say something that is accidentally horrific. Like it either sounds incredibly racist or anti-LGBT+ or p3doph1l1c in one instance(that one in particular was so bad that the mere reminder of it sends chills down my spine). I won't go into specifics because I don't feel like looking back at such things, but I remember that stuff & needless to say I regret those things. It's not just that I'm autistic, it's also because my mind just keeps warping between various words, phrases & images so fast that I cannot think for a second that what I'm about to say or write will sound awful out of context.
...And I have a feeling that I'm gonna get banned for saying this.
EDIT: If it says "Banned" under the stars then you probably know that this post is why.
Also I'm definitely keeping a eye on you now.
I'm nothing but a mass of concrete yet my heart is calling my name
For me, I just sometimes say something that is accidentally horrific. Like it either sounds incredibly racist or anti-LGBT+ or p3doph1l1c in one instance(that one in particular was so bad that the mere reminder of it sends chills down my spine). I won't go into specifics because I don't feel like looking back at such things, but I remember that stuff & needless to say I regret those things. It's not just that I'm autistic, it's also because my mind just keeps warping between various words, phrases & images so fast that I cannot think for a second that what I'm about to say or write will sound awful out of context.
...And I have a feeling that I'm gonna get banned for saying this.
EDIT: If it says "Banned" under the stars then you probably know that this post is why.
Also I'm definitely keeping a eye on you now.
Honestly sometimes I feel like I should consider whether or not I should even be here.
Dreams are boundless, imaginations are infinite, space is a multi-directional spiral & Akazukin ChaCha is my favorite anime
