Heartbeat in the Brain

I actually know a little about this. I did have a chance to see this film, and it is even more intense than described. It was actually lost for a number of years, but Amanda Feilding found it again in the 90's I believe. I wouldn't say she guards the film under constant lock and key, but for her, trepanation for the expansion of consciousness is a very serious and scientific subject that she protects, and she doesn't indulge people who have "prurient" interests in seeing the film. She's cares a great deal about the procedure being scientifically studied, and has spent much of her life fighting off the "freak show" aspect some people ascribe to the practice. From what I remember it's rather short. I imagine it was shot on a single 16mm reel (100ft), so maybe 4 minutes give or take. There was no synch sound, but I don't remember any music playing over the footage, even if there was you'd be too focused on the images to notice. If you saw the Hole In The Head documentary, you've seen a good overview of the film. There is some more "extreme" footage in the full film, like the prep incision, the peeling of the skin to expose the bone, and the initial impact of the drill bit to the skull, and more footage of her pigeon flying. It's weird, because on the one hand it's totally a little home movie filled with snapshots of a personal activity/almost-performance and her pets, but the fact that it depicts such extreme and real behavior then transforms it. It was a haell of an experience.

It was shown in London at a film festival several years ago. And yes, Amanda Feilding was there.

I remember reading about this in various forums and there is a rumor going around that it was uploaded to Dailymotion and Vimeo on 2011 but quickly got striked (assumingly by Feilding herself)
But take that word of mouth with a grain of salt, but if it is true that would mean somebody out there has it though

I found a potential lead. It's a tumblr blog called "Jahsonic's microblog", and the owner posted four stills from the film back in 2011. He last updated his blog back in December 2017, so it could be dead, but there's a chance. I'm going to send him an ask and see if he has any information.

Did he respond?